It has been awhile since I have I really sat down and wrote a blog post. I guess I can blame it on the 10 and 5 page papers I have been working on. Yes, the first papers are submitted. Now, I wait. I just want to be reassured that I am grad school material. I am loving every minute of it and love what I am learning. I love that I am going to school with a lot with some type of military connection. In one class, all three of the people in the group are military spouses. One just got back from a deployment, and then two of us had husbands leave on the same day. Many are balancing families and their husband's careers as well.
I got a very touching E-mail from a dear friend yesterday asking for prayers. Her husband was with AJ on active duty when we were first married. We have stayed in touch ever since. Her husband went on to become an officer. They are just a beautiful family. Her husband has been in the heart of the battles going on in Afghanistan. She sent me a video, and I couldn't even watch it. They suffered a few losses last week and she was just praying for strength. We talked about how she was just exhausted. She had been the rock for so many, and there she sat waiting for her own doorbell to ring while sheltering her kids. Ugh... totally get that. My heart just breaks for her. I know that AJ is pretty much on base right now, so yes his safety is on my mind, but I feel that I can relax a bit.
We talked about being the rock and how hard it is. I love that people turn to me during a deployment, but honestly I feel some days I can't be a rock for one more person. I hate that feeling, but I have to leave some of me for me and my kiddos. Not to mention my husband. It is so easy to be consumed by others needs during a deployment.
I was looking forward to getting out of town this weekend to our most favorite place on this earth... Michigan. But, on our way in to town today Brayden let me know he was testing for his marshal arts on Thursday or Friday. Ugh... change of plans Well, I actually prayed about it earlier in the day. I woke up feeling overwhelmed. I had a paper lingering, class to get organized for, a baby up at 5, and a tornado of a house. I asked God to take away what wasn't necessary and sure enough I got my answer. As much as I wanted to get away, do some shopping, and play... It is nice to know I have a weekend with nothing much to do and can get to Service Sunday morning. Then, my Dad and I will take Keegan to Operation Purple Camp in Indiana. It is a camp that is for military kids, especially deployed kids. I am so excited for him to get to make new friends!
I am putting my feet up, watching Real Housewives of OC, and opening a bottle of wine. This momma is tired and ready to watch some mindless t.v.!
my brain is boggled
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