Monday, October 31, 2011
I was glad they wanted AJ in on the conversation. He did make it easier. Yes, I cried most of the way through it. Because I do want it ALL! Our orignial plan with splitting the childcare will not work and I am totally against putting G in daycare. I did that with my other boys and always have felt a bit guilty. If anything from our time in military. I have realized that kids grow super fast and that you have to enjoy every minute. So... here I go.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
I know even from being on the outside, while friends are deployed... I don't always have the right words. I want to help, but don't know how. No one can replace the emptiness that comes with a deployment or separation. I just ask that people care. People show compassion. I understand that there is not one person in this world who doesn't have stress. But, in order to feel those stresses and live, people like my family and my husband have to make sacrifices. I just ask that you check in on those who have a loved one deployed. Don't ask... just do something nice for them. Go just be with them. See if there is anything that can be done. 99.99 percent of the time, I will tell you no and a lot of my friends would too. But, you never know... you may just get us on that off day.
This deployment I will surround myself with supportive and loving people. If you are not one of those, I have no time or energy for you. That is how it is.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
If I have learned anything the past 10 days... it is that deployments with children is beyond the hardest thing I have ever had to balance. As a reservist family, we are used to AJ being gone at night but not for days at a time with little to know communication. My boys adore their Dad and we have all felt the emptiness with him gone. Keegan has had some issues with turning work in late this week. Although I am not excusing the late assignment, I know how hard it has been for me to stay focused. I have decided I need to clear out the things that are un essential to us surviving this deployment. I have resigned from my volunteer job. I have loved the contacts I made, but I just can't give it my 110% now. The baby needs me during the day, and the older kids need my full attention at night. So from now on... it is the simpler route. I hate quitting anything, but know it's essential.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
My deployment diet has started. My stomach has been in knots all weekend. Food sounds good, but quickly makes me nauseous. I think that once I get AJ out the door, and get into a routine I will feel less anxious.
In less then 12 hours our journey begins. AJ is in the garage packing and cleaning. I know that leaving us, even for the couple initial weeks, is going to be hard on him. I packed a card in his hygiene bag from Gracyen. I know he is going to miss us all, but especially his little monkey.
I hope to post ball picture soon!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Last night, AJ cancelled all the things on our calendar and we had a family night out. We took the kids to the new Bass Pro shop and had dinner in their new restaurant. The kids enjoyed it and it was nice to not have to run to football practice. Here is a cute photo I took.